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Originally Posted by Background Noise
Today I was thinking about my life, and I couldn't help but think that I am a failure in everything. I am in my late 30s and have nothing going on in my life. No friends, no family, no job, no partner, no house, no car, no nothing. I went to grad school dreaming of a good life, but it was a waste of time and money. I regret it so much. All my peers seem happy with their wives and children. Most of them have progressed in their jobs to high ranks, while I am looking to start from the bottom now. I avoid talking to anyone to avoid the question "what are doing these days?". They would know I am just a big failure. This is one reason why I am off social media, and have no contact with extended family and people I know.
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I am sorry that you are feeling defeated in so many ways.
I have certainly felt the way that you are feeling and I can say from experience that it was very damaging to my outlook on life, caused depression, and weakened overall personal morale in general.
One thing that I will recommend, that may be beneficial to you and that has greatly helped me, is to try not to lean on parallel comparisons. The more I did this, the worse that I felt. It accomplished nothing except to make my depression and overall personal engagement worse off.
Instead, try to understand that the others that you are comparing yourself to may have crippling life circumstances that they don't advertise.
I hope some of this was helpful. I have a lot of sympathy for you and the situation that you are in. Good luck!