This may be your opinion, DL, but I completely disagree. I did not see it as public. I thought this was confidential. And yes while calling someone the C word is never helpful, constructive even irresponsible, it can happen. It happened for me in the heat of the moment (not saying it's ok, it's an explanation) I find your post unsupportive, blaming, and invalidating. I don't need that this morning.

Edit: I had been feeling awful about all this yesterday. ("What's wrong with me?" "No really what's wrong with me?" "I cannot believe I did that" I was diagnosing myself in my head and that also felt awful). To have you rub my face in this feels just the same.

You seem also to be operating under the guise that I don't care and am looking for sympathy for being hurtful. I do care. I was not looking for sympathy for that particular subject however I did need support yesterday and to just bounce my thoughts and feelings off someone.