I'm so sorry, cryingontheinside Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I'm so sorry you're hurting so much. Just know that you ARE good enough just by being you, and I'm sure this world would be a lot emptier and sadder without you. Certainly this forum would. Please don't give up. I know things seem pretty hard right now, but trust me when I say that they can get better. Try to hang on. You're a wonderful person and you deserve to lead an happy life. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. You can face reality. I know you can. I hope things will get better soon for you. Remember that we all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about. I know it's not the same thing as having a support system IRL, but at least it's something. I'm here for you as well. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you