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Originally Posted by coolibrarian
My T has said, "How can I help you?" Sometimes when she's done this, I get annoyed and say, "You're the professional, you tell me!" Sometimes I've apologized for this, but other times I don't. NT, were you afraid that she couldn't help you? I think it's important that at your next session, if you can, to start where you ended. For example, did she realize you had dissociated? It might be hard, but it might also help to figure out what triggered the dissociation.
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Yes she was aware. I completely shut down for a bit.
I dont think I was afraid she couldnt help me. When I brought up the topic, I told her I was afraid to because there had been a lot of triggers over the last week and I have been really struggling. I told her I was in an okay place having pushed everything aside. I was afraid of stirring the pot again.
I find it frustrating when she blames herself for things. Maybe because I always blame myself and am told it is not my fault but she blames herself.
When she made the statements about not helping me what I really wanted to say was that she wasnt really helping me because once I walked out the door I am on my own to deal with this crap for a week.