One of my close friends was there for me when I went through some really bad issues with anxiety and depression. When I needed her she (usually) came running and would always check in to make sure I was okay. She talked with my teachers at University multiple times to tell them how I was, and was honestly my rock through it all.

However when things got really bad she began to pull away, she has told me since she thought we both needed space to work on ourselves and other things, but now I am doing better things are still off between us and we don't really talk to each other at all. She tells me she isn't talking to me because she has personal stuff going on, and I want to believe her, but she always seems so happy around everyone else.

I don't know what (if anything) I did wrong, but I know I miss her a lot. One time at school she asked for a hug and we talked for a bit. Another time when I approached her one night and told her I was not angry she smiled like I can't remember seeing her smile before.

But she still needs distance, and I am not sure she'll ever come back into my life. I miss her a lot but have told her I will give her all the space she needs, and when she is ready we will find a way back into each others life.

But I don't understand how someone can go from caring so much, to pulling away like this. I've seen her face when she saw me on pain, and I could see she felt it too. I know she cared.

I'm so sorry for what I put her through. I just want to sit with her in my room again, get to know her better and laugh with each other. I miss her, but I don't think she misses me, and it's breaking my heart.