I’m a lost cause. I’m beyond help. I’m weak. I’m ugly. I’m not good enough. I’m not good at anything. Nothing helps. Medications do not help. I have had multiple medication trials. And I feel worse than ever. I am sicker than ever. And this is all my fault. I’m not worthy. I’m told that I should take medications. I should be able to manage without medications and without any support. I hate myself. I’m a failure. This makes me worthless.