Hi Andrew! You are really brave. It's not easy to admit when things are hard or when you are struggling the way that you are. You are very smart to come here and ask for help. I think that was a great decision. I have been where you are, I understand. Fortunately, I'm on a great combo of meds that works well for me (see, ther's hope! It can happen!) you just have to hang in there and keep trying until it works out the way it should. I think it's normal for you to be up and down and restless if you are switching or coming down from medication that's been in your system for some time. Your brain got used to artificial feelings, happiness, energy or the opposite, numbness. Or all of the above! And now your brain is like Whoa! What's going on? Where's my serotonin? It's not your fault that you feel this way at all.

If you feel like you may make a life changing decision that could potentially be a bad choice....just wait. Don't panic about things that haven't happened yet. Don't stress about the job offer. Right now your life is the way it is and you are where you are supposed to be. If the offer comes and you must make a decision and are unsure, ask your friends or your family, a couple people you really trust. They can help you. Do the old fashioned Pro's VS Con's list about it, keep emotion out of it and stick with facts.

As far as being grumpy with people and wanting to be alone, I got nothing. I dislike being around people pretty much always, to the point where I stay home. I work from home, I order everything online and I don't do people-y stuff often. It's comforting for me, although it's probably not the healthiest choice... When I worked, I worked around lots of people too and had to always be "happy" and helpful and ready to spend hours upon hours helping people with high ticket purchases. Many times I didn't feel like it, I just wanted to give them a piece of my mind and go home! Unfortunately that wasn't possible. So to cheer myself up I'd do something nice for someone else. Something as simple as picking up lunch for the receptionist when she wasn't expecting it. Or really taking the time to listen to a frustrated client and trying my best to help solve their problem, even if it wasn't my job at all. Get your head right. Take a break for 15 minutes, eat something, drink some water and give yourself a pep talk. You got this. You are going to rock the rest of this day, even though you feel like crap. Then you are going to go home, make sure you get enough sleep tonight, not stress about things that are beyond your control and you'll be ok. This is temporary. You'll get through it. You rock, Andrew!