I never reported my therapy sessions here but when I was in therapy, frequently sent long, elaborate analyses to the Ts, a lot of them a few hours after the sessions or the next day. Back then, I mostly thought it was my way of processing things for myself plus a desire to be seen and understood more completely. I think these were certainly part of it, but the biggest part (that I only admitted to myself later) was that I used the long emails as a form of avoidance. I had important things to do (often writing) that I procrastinated and wrote the emails instead. There was also an element of wanting to impress, but the procrastination/avoidance/distraction from real life real important things was by far the top one reason. I did that with many other people as well, not just Ts, even used a forum in that way very much and to some extent this one as well. Don't know if anyone relates to this, just thought to share as one version.
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