I'm so sorry you're struggling, tmg4me I'm sorry that it took so long to get a proper diagnosis. Unfortunately Depression and Bipolar can be confused, although it's weird that so many doctors failed to catch up with it. I'm glad you've been able to find the right meds combination for you! I hope it will help a bit. I'm so sorry you're feeling lonely. Please don't give up. If it can help a bit... we're here for you. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. I know it's not the same thing as having a support system IRL, but at least it's something. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this