Well I haven't checked in awhile.

I was so spoiled this Christmas by my sisters. Got tickets to the Lion King! It was breathtaking! Took my son. I cried through most of it. We were in row G. Just right by the isle. Which is super cool if you've seen it you'll know what mean. If you are going to go, I don't want to spoil it.

It's by far my son's and I favorite Disney movie. It came out the yr he was born!

On the bp front, I'm slowly coming off lorazepam. She switched me to diazepam. We are decreasing by 2 mgs every month. I started out on 20 mgs and now I'm on 12. But I made a huge mistake with my meds . I was so drowsy and tired on the diazepam that I lowered my trazadone by a lot 3 months ago. Just thinking of the mass fatigue and not the antidepressant part I got extremely suicidal. I finally realized it about a week ago. We increased the trazadone back up some. I'm feeling much better.

My son: he is ok on and off. He's been off weed for about 4 months. He's on 7.5 of Zyprexa and gabapentin and 20 of prozac. He can be very exhausting. He goes into rages at times and is OBSESSED with politics. He has a new pdoc, I've had the same pdoc in the past and he's not very good. But to switch at this place now takes a lot to prove why you want to switch. Being on medicaid for mental health help for ppl with psychotic disorders absolutely sucks!!!! Right now he thinks he's being drugged at the gym and we'll all the time. But he won't tell his treatment team for fear of being over medicated. I tell them over the phone as he will not let me go in to his appts.

I hope everyone is well. If not, lots of hugs to you.