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Originally Posted by emma345
Hello,
I used to work as a legal secretary but I got sick 2 years ago and I lost my physical strength that I had before. So it is very hard for me now to continue doing this work, which is stressful and demanding.
I decided to work from home through the internet.
I started a blog where I publish inspirational quotes and my photography of my city.
However, I cannot come to terms with the fact that I dont work in an office anymore. I feel some kind of guilt and emptiness. When you work in an office- you are surrounded with people all day, you communcate and you contribute to some kind of collective work. When I work alone, I feel a little bit out of place... I dont even know why. I lack motivation. I lack maybe "recognition" of peers... as I spend most of the days alone.
But mostly, I guess I feel guilty that I dont work in an office anymore and I dont know why.. after all it is my life and my choice! Why should I feel guilty? Before whom?? nobody cares.
So I dont know what to do to make myself feel better.
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Have you tried any volunteer work? Something which connects you with others and you can do at your own pace...not a major commitment which would be too tiring for you. Do you have close friends? Volunteering could be another way to meet new folks.
Prolonged guilt, for no apparent reason, can be a symptom of depression. I'm certainly not trying to diagnose you!
Perhaps you aren't depressed but something for you to think about. Our work self can be, for many, a big part of our identity. Your work self just went through a major change. Perhaps you are dealing with some grief for the loss of your old lifestyle...out in the busy office, bonds with colleagues, possibly making more money etc.
Do you ever meditate? You might like to target the guilt that way. You can try a YouTube search for: 'guided meditation to let go of guilt.' So many great options. Choose a style, voice, image that works for you. I find that it really helps me when I feel stuck on a particular thought or feeling. Also takes practice. Talking with a psychologist is another option. To develop coping strategies and comfort while you adjust to this change in your life.
Peace and a bright future to you!