Thanks for expressing your feelings (((Fuzzybear))), I feel your pain as well.

I had a psychologist and a doctor whose whole attitude and demeanor with me went downhill because I dared to ask them if there were any medications that could help me[!] - "AHA! Drug Seeking!! Criminal!!" But I've had a number of discriminatory experiences like that and never really bounced back. I don't trust them either my friend. If you don't mind me mentioning Fuzzy, I fully respect the fact that you can't use medication (((Hugs))) and it's probably just as well - I'm lucky in the sense that my meds do help to an extent but the merry-go-round of trying different ones to see what works for me, and the damage and side effects those previous meds left me with - well, I feel like I've been scammed.

Such a difficult path and thanks for letting me share as well. I'm happy the internet is here so I don't feel alone in my own struggles.

Thanks Fuzzy. You're absolutely not the problem and fight on please, with the rest of us.