I'm so sorry, elevatedsoul Please don't give up. I know things seem pretty hard right now, but trust me when I say that they can get better. I hope you'll feel better soon. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here fo you as well. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you