Thanks

I'm just feeling a bit stuck with a paradoxical type problem...
Such as;
The only way i can start to get better is by moving away from these people and having my own house, job, life ... but seem to have the issue where i cant accomplish that until i get better

You know? Becomes easy to feel hopeless and fruitless.

But i am trying... im just stressed to the max.. trying to manage alooot of things... not only events and scenarios, but thoughts, emotions, feelings .. fighting with myself to keep the specific "set" of ideas up front that can get me out of this place but it easily withdraws leaving me empty and scared pushing me toward the not so good coping techniques



I just dunno how to manage this all
time management is near impossible... i seem to be my own worst enemy, most important care giver, the one that will destroy all my efforts while encouraging myself to keep trying .. its not fair..