I can't control myself while in a mania- not at all

anything else.. I do have very little control, and because it's so little, most of the time I just let what ever's going to happen happen.

my control is strongest when I'm depressed (for example, I've certainly felt suicidal more times than I've done it.)

I just usually come on here and hang out

as a bonus, pannic attacks are the worst for control (for me)

I just get agressive when someone tries to help me- even threatening violence.

which I always found strange.. it's just a panic attack