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As you can see, I have a package of issues to deal with. First, I need to process my emotions regarding past abuse and know how to deal with my father's criticism, second, I need to learn how to connect with people and manage my anxiety so that I won't be be alone all the time and make personal relationships, and third I need to find a job to survive and to do some meaningful. I am trying to tackle them all at the same time, which makes it difficult.
For example, I feel down most of the time because I am alone, but sometimes I feel positive, so I start preparing applications and apply for jobs, only to receive rejection letters telling me basically that other applicants are better than me, which brings me down again, and re-enforces my social isolation because I feel like a failure.
Finding a job is crucial for me to feel confident again, because I need to feel independent and contributing, but to find a job I need to be confident on how I write my resume and talk and present myself when interviewed. It's like a cycle with no beginning and no end.
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