I feel depressed again. Like I just randomly want to die. Its like getting hit by a truck. Again. About the 4th time this week.

Im just going to curl up into a ball until this goes away. Its really hard though. Its been a while since Ive felt this bad this often. Im kinda scared. Its becoming harder to make the voice that tells me to keep going keep stay.

But I can make it through until next week hopefully. I just hate how bad these thoughts are.