Beating myself up over eating a Lindt truffle...I really wish this stupid ED would go away for good.

Do any of you feel like even if you recover from your ED or have had periods of recovery, you'll never get rid of ED thoughts completely?

I've had times when I've had ED thoughts less or not acted on them, but they have never gone away completely. Not even close. I'm starting to feel like they never will even if I recover outwardly and don't ever act on them again. It's been over 20 years with this thing (I'm 41 now), and the ED thoughts are as intrusive as ever. Worse now as I'm in a bit of a relapse.