So if the answer is both then I guess I'll have to get a workbook. I'm going to try to stay out of a group setting as long as I can. I'm not messing with my meds even though I really want too. I actually want to up my AP. I hate the feeling of bugs crawling out of my eyes.


I haven't cut since November but I think of different ways to hurt myself several times a day.


Stop using headphones to check out I'm working on this but it's really, really hard almost painful.


Miguel needs you to actively help him with his MI issues and school work Set some time that you just spend with him one on one. We're actually doing dishes together every night. We've had long talks at night. Real talks not through text. He likes someone so he's learning to deal with that. He's scared of what his future will look like because day to day is rough for him right now. I'm reminding him to take his meds. He's starting to take better care of himself but he's counting calories so it scares me. I don't know if this is the start of him being healthy or more than that. I guess we'll see. It really hasn't been that long on the anti-depressant to see effects. especially such drastic changes 2+ hours at the gym (we couldn't get him to walk over to the trash), on top of his work (getting 80+), watching what he eats and other stuff.


My husband is worried about me. I know he loves me and cares but I don't feel he does but he probably feels the same way. We have to find a cheap way to show I care. Words mean nothing right now but I still ask for reassurance every couple of hours.