Thanks for sharing your concern here on PC, Miguel. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.

Honestly, I don't think there is really a lot I can say about this. I think this is all simply something you have to work out in your own mind. I guess the one thing I would say is that, to my way of thinking, in order to be a good therapist you have to be deeply familiar with your own wounds. As the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön has written: "Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It's a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present with the darkness of others. Compassion becomes real when we recognize our shared humanity." (The Places That Scare You, Pgs. 66-67.)

I think that what you perhaps need to do is to spend some time with a counselor or therapist yourself & talk all of this through until you can come to some conclusions regarding what you really want to do. There's never going to be a point where every conceivable question or concern is answered. You simply have to clarify as many points of concern as possible & then choose.

Here are links to 8 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest to you. The first article (as well as the 7th) is by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D:

So You Want to Become a Psychologist?

Psychologists Spill: When I Knew I'd Become a Psychotherapist

Therapists Spill: Why I Love Being a Clinician

Therapists Have Therapy Too

Career Coaching 101: Finding a Professional to Help You Find Your Fulfilling Career

https://psychcentral.com/lib/how-to-...er-path/?all=1

https://psychcentral.com/lib/choices...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/lib/6-relia...cisions/?all=1

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.