Took my meds for the evening a while ago. Sleep doesn’t seem within reach. I sense a very odd and unacceptable trend in my sleeping habits and mood. It’s beyond anything I have experienced at least in recent years and it has left me disconcerted. I currently want to curl in a ball and cry. The emotions are pouring out of my chest into streams of chaos. My life feels so overwhelming and I feel a considerable let down. It is simply intolerable. My poor kids, especially my 11 year old who actually picks up on everything, don’t deserve a sick mom. I feel extraordinarily defeated.