So, my T typically was against this and while it sucked, I liked not feeling dependent on him or therapy, it was good for me to have weekly for the most part. (even though he thankfully gave me 2x after my dog died and at the end of therapy)

Anyway, I'm starting to feel like I "need to go again" already and its not about bonding or anything, couldn't give a **** less about this guy but the release of getting the feelings out, in person with someone was really nice and its' sadly pushed them more to the surface so it feels more intense.

I don't want to initially be like "I need to come 2x a week" it comes off very needy and I hate that. However I also don't want long term therapy nor a bond of any kind so this needs to happen as fast as possible. Is there usually a specific type of therapist more willing to do this right away? I mean the Tues guy had nothing until this coming Thur (over a week wait) and Monday guy had 1 spot all week and then the secretary said "That's all he has this week, he's booked" so neither of them seem like potentials for this anyway.

I feel in this case, like going 2x a week could make it all go way faster and really help me get the intense feelings out. I'm a huge fan of sitting with your feelings, and all... but this feels more intense than anything I've ever experienced. (yes this is even worse to me than losing my beloved dog)

I'm also wondering, is there any good tips on if by some chance I found a therapist open to this right away, to keep any sort of bond from happening? I'll quit instantly if I feel a closeness or bond happening so I need to "stop dog" therapy this time LOL

The other issue is Feb 14 I have surgery which will remove me from any sessions for 2-3 weeks..... and while I don't care in the sense that I wont miss these clowns or anything, I worry that after I'm feeling more myself in the recovery, the intense feelings will hit again and I wont have any outlet for weeks. Any thoughts on that?