Thanks for the replies.

I don't think I'll opt down the 2x a week path. I'm too stubborn and I am not putting myself at risk of bonding or dependency. I will just try to focus more on journaling and mind numbing hobbies.

I want to go to boxing but I'm gonna wait until I recover from surgery anyway

2x was just a thought but I'll be ok. Honestly I'll be surprised if I see anyone post surgery