I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, mountainstream Please don't give up. Remember that you're NOT weak. In fact, you're very strong, because you're fighting and you're reaching out to us. I'm glad you're here with us and I enjoy reading your posts. You don't deserve to go through this. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. You deserve to live just like everyone else. I hope you'll feel better soon. I know things seem pretty bad right now, but just know that they can get better. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you