I am adopted but not BPD, so sorry if I'm speaking out of turn. I was just looking for posts from other adoptees and found yours.
Abandonment or what I perceive as abandonment is a huge trigger for me though.
I know who my birth mother is and could contact her if I wanted, but I'm very angry with her.
I found my birth father through DNA testing 6 months ago and we email. He's ready to meet but I'm terrified of not being enough, of what he wants, of what it means, of being rejected again.
Hope you don't mind my posting here, please let me know if you do.