I’m too much. I’m not enough. I’m not “good enough” to be helped, by the help which is available to those who deserve it. Family told me I’m not good at anything. . And threw me into the gutter, where I belong why would this cub or this bear deserve love? No no no this cub deserved abuse cloaked as “justified” punishment. How much longer I can survive with no meds, doesn’t matter. I can’t tolerate them. This is my fault. it’s my fault for being “stupid” ......My body is flawed and so is my mind. The experts (irl) told me this and then dismissed me. I only got what I deserved, more abuse I was told I was not deserving... in so many ways. By so many professionals :-( I am just plain horrible, the only person in the world who isn’t “good at anything”. please, don’t bite me for being honest please forgive me for being stupid (?) and all the labels the professionals irl gave me - basically “not worth helping”... but “help is for all” ......