I don't know what to tell you, but wish I had something useful to say. I know it gets hard sometimes. Feelings are intense, and it seems like you can't stand it, and have to escape. But we have to help our clients to learn to tolerate their feelings so they can heal. We can't ask them to do something that we aren't willing to do. And if you don't sit with your feelings and get through them, you won't really heal. Escaping from feelings keeps us the way we are.