Hi Stayingafloat, it sounds like you are in a really bad space right now. I'm sorry you were gossiped about and laughed at. That's terrible and you don't deserve it. I'm hoping you can reach out to someone IRL because you sound like you are in a really not good place, so call a hotline or talk to a priest or someone you can trust. Don't end it all because of some malicious gossip. Don't let them win. Keep talking here. We're listening. HUGS HUGS HUGS Kit