Do you have enough support in your day to day life? Do you have a couneslor? That can help quite a bit.

Things are harder when you have a mental illness, that is for sure. Its ok to feel that sometimes I think- that life is kind of unfair- because it can be.

Its hard when people seem to just be able to choose their moodd... when you just cant. I understand that. It can make you feel sort of helpless.

But maybe... try to do something simple that will help whenever you feel like this. Make one small plan to do something that can help you in the future. It might make you feel less powerless id you feel like- even if the thing is small- its something you have a little control over.

Anyways. A hug for you. I hope that things just get easier for you instead of harder. Talk to your therapist and Pdoc if you have them and let them know how you are feeling. They should be able to really undersfand and hopefully help