From a more general point of view, can you share how you experience life.. day by day. Maybe because i am lonely and i have no significant affective life, i tend to think that my life is empty. I experience that time goes by without real purpose.. the thing is that i really would like to have a child.. i think it would fulfill my search for purpose... or at least if i had a partner... i would devote some of my time to my couple.. but as i am single.. i experience life as empty and with no purpose. I think having some professional activity is not sufficient to fill fulfillment... even friends and social life doesnt give me that.. i think only a partner and a family life would give me a purpose.