-I was saying how I saw the doc at the campus student health center and how I really really like him. And that he was really supportive back when I was ending up in the ER a lot. I mentioned that he'd also been understanding about the situation when I absolutely refused to see another doc there again. My T asked if that was the doctor who'd made the inappropriate comments. This was like six months ago and I thought he hadn't really been paying attention at the time because he was more focused on my SH, much to my frustration, so I'd thought he wouldn't remember it. I definitely didn't get the validation I needed at the time, but when I said yes it was the same doc he asked if I'd ended up reporting him, and I said I didn't think it would be taken seriously. My T said from what he remembered that those comments had been really inappropriate. I don't remember his exact language, but it was basically validation that those comments went well beyond crossing the line.

-We talked about the belief that "it wasn't that bad." He brought up if we could hypothetically have a video of my father's tirades how I'd feel watching it and whether I'd still say it wasn't that bad. I acknowledged that I would probably think it was pretty bad. A bit later he brought up the concept of a video of me being upset and like crying in my room at night because my mom wouldn't come home to tuck me in. He asked if I'd still say the things I was saying about myself. I reflexively made a face of disgust and said yes, absolutely, I would hate it and think it was disgusting and pathetic and weak. He wasn't expecting that answer. He asked if I'd really feel that way watching a video of it, and I said yes, I would feel shame and disgust. He asked if I'd believe that about another child and I said no, but that was different.

-I cried a bit. That was unusual.

-He referred to me being "triggered" and said it was "like PTSD" multiple times

-at the very end when we were talking about my feelings of disgust with myself he said he understood where those feelings came from, talked about them being how I adapted, but said it was hard to listen to how I felt about myself