I don't get it! I go months without cutting and then all at once, I am overpowered by it and cut. Then it's like I binge cut for weeks at a time and then stop again for awhile. Someone in my family who I am VERY close with chose my ex boyfriend (who was the father of my son *RIP*) over me tonight, and I just lost it... I cut so deep this time that blood wasn't just dropping, it was pouring onto my cloths and the floor. I had to put vaseline on it to kinda stop it up. What's with me?! They've got medication to help drug addicts get off drugs, they have anti depressents, etc, etc... Do they not have a medication to help me stop this?! I'm going crazy.