Yes, I've been a member here for a year now and right from day one I've noticed you never have a bad word to say about anyone [?!] - I think it's a sign of a very special soul, tbh. I also think the support and love you show people Mickey, is an accomplishment - a proper accomplishment - and I hope these negative self feelings you're having will pass soon. Good on you for posting this as well because self honesty encourages people to be real with themselves too - it's important. Sending you vital energies...(((MickeyCheeky)))