I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, pandabear0927 I agree with all the others. Just cut them out of your life if you can. They may be your family, but if they're toxic people around, they have no business being in your life. True, lving families should stick together and love each other, after all. But if they're not willing to do so, then you have every right to stay away from them. Don't let them manipulate your life. It's your own life and your own decisions. You don't need more toxic people. I'm so sorry, I now how hard it is when it's your own family that's hurting you. But you need to take care of yourself. It's just self-preservation, after all. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you