I'm so sorry, Um0810 I agree that a therapist may be really helpful in your case. I also agree with downandlonely about talking to your dad about this if your mom is aggressive. If your dad isn't available, what about other relatives? Do you have any other family members that you can trust? Do you go to school? What about your teachers? Please try to reach out to whoever you can. You deserve to get the help you need. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you