I have never experienced this, Miss Laura, so unfortunately I don't have a lot of advice to give to you Are you working through this with your counsellor? Is it helping? I certainly hope so. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I hope you'll be able to work through this issue. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. You're definitely not alone in this, as this thread has already shown. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you