I'm so sorry you've had to put up with this, alcollins I agree with all the others. It's probably bad memories from your childhood that are coming back. Perhaps you still need some more time to move on completely. These scars are not easy to deal with. Just try to move on and do your best at life, like you're alredy doing. Avoid contacting them ever again if you can. You don't need more toxic people in your life. Stay away from them as much as you can. Don't feel guilty about it. You need to take care of yourself after all. It's just self-preservation. I hope you'll feel better soon. We're here for you if you need it. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you