I strikes me when I read what you are writing right now about your therapist that you sound calmer and actually more peaceful about your therapy/therapist than I've heard you before. Maybe it is a misread on my part, but I sense a change in your writing "voice" and your statements feel more grounded and rational actually.

I see that as a positive, but I can also see how, if you are feeling that way internally, it is a change for you and change can be discombobulating. I just wanted to mention what I've "hearing" in the way you are posting about this. It feels like growth from an outside reader's perspective.