I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Wander Please don't give up. I understand how hard this must be for you. I think you did the right thing by going IP. It means that you care about yourself and your own safety. And that's good! It means that you know when you need to get help. Please don't hesitate to aks help here as well. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I hope you'll feel better soon. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. We all love you here, Wander. You're a wonderful person. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you