Thank you all for your input and reassurance. The really helps me to hang in. day four in hospital and I can hardly write as I', heavily drugged on Haldol. Its really helping me except for they typing.

Today I am getting a second opinion on my Bipolar from a bipolar sepeciaist in that area. I will still keep my doctor but just making sure he is doing all he can. This helps me to no be paranoid of my doctor but I am still paranoid about some nurses and patient here. I went to the counter yearnerday to get my meds then ran away as I was terrified of all the people. Thankfully my nurse brought them to my room.

I am beginning to feels after and less paranoid but still totally freak out at times. I want this stay to be a week or
10 days. I am realising my paranoia is not based on reality but is instead in my mind is still freaked out all of the time. It is exhausting.