Hello,
I have been readind an article on the net about what it really means to enjoy life: that is find something that makes you happy and do lots of it. However, I am in a dilemma... I really want to have kids and a man and a house.. well, a family. But I am single and I have no prospects whatsoever and I am already 34 years old. I have been dreaming about this since a few years now, but I seem to be quite unlucky.. I cannot attract a good man that I would love and who would love me. So what i really love and really want (the purpose of my life)- well I dont have it and I dont even know if I will ever have it!
I feel frustration that overwhelmes me all the time.. I feel the emptiness of my life. I dont like anything else really... I really think that I would find purpose in a family!! I dont know how to deal with my frustration??
I wait and I wait and time goes by and more and more I tell myself that I will never meet a man for myself. It is frustrating and depressing and I feel life in unfair to me!! How can I deal with my frustration?
I read books about coping with emotions.. they say you have to stay "present" to your emotion.. "live through" it.. yeah I guess that's right, but even if I live through it.. it doesnt go away... I need to tend to my anger 24h in order to feel good.. I can never relax.. I feel overwhelmed with frustration. I need to control it all the time. Sometimes it is hard because I dont have the energy all the time to control my frustration.