Gone meaning it doesn't exist about 90 percent at this point. I relate to my T as who he is. The attachment feelings are gone, so I feel an adult bond with him rather than the in love feelings or painful needs for soothing and nurturing. (although I do feel some its about 10% now).

Yes, my transference was intense as it gets. I think that having an observing ego and an adequately trained and experienced T allowed me to continue working through it. My T works psychoanalytically, so working through it was the focus of the therapy and the reason it has been resolved. It was the most grueling, difficult work.

Sexual feelings arose quite often for a couple of years. For the most part, they represented very young feelings expressing in an adult body. For example feeling the excitement of my 4 year old self as a child. A little girl feels excitement seeing her father, but with an adult body, the excitement feels sexual.

It took 5 years, but my trauma history is severe. How long have you been at it?