I understand how you feel, emma345 I agree with golden_eve about this. I'd suggest to focus on yourself first before going into a relationship. I know it's not easy, but I believe that's the best thing to do and besides, you may attract more men that way. Try to find some hobbies for yourself. What do you like to do in your free time? I'd focus on that. Try to take care of yourself. I feel like that's very important. Volunteering is already a great thing! You could meet some new people that way. What about books? Movies? Anything that may peak your interest. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you