here's one for the books. i don't remember marrying hubby. i barely rememberly meeting him. i was highly dissociative at that time and i think he saved my life. i just have snapshot memories of the first five months. we met in november. my ex moved out and he moved in in november. i was divorced and engaged on the same day in december. we were married january 27, and i found out i was pregnant in feb. i "woke up" to a new life, and it was the best thing that could've happened.

i have this to say...in two years when we're married for 20 yrs., i want to have a ceremony. i've never had a wedding and don't remember going before the preacher with hubby (i have one snapshot pic in head, and he's not even in it). i want to have a small ceremony and "i" want to marry my hubby all over again. that would mean so much to me somehow. i'd say "i do" a million more times to this man. t and i were just talking about this saturday...my desire to choose to and marry again the man i love.

kd