Thanks guys.

Usually I try not to let these things bug me but... Ive just not been doing great lately. Ive been trying to figure out reasons to fight these feelings, reasons that will help me feel as if fighting is worth it. And just to have someone say such cruel things... hurts.

I try really hard to function well- and I still struggle sometimes just because I do have extra things to deal with.

That said. People dont ALWAYS make fun of me. In fact... people tend to like me more and more over time. Its just that some of my interests (which I rarely even bring up to strangers- and sometimes even to friends) are a little obscure. But just because Im interested in things other people arent, like psychology, conspiracy theories, philosophy, literature, anthropology... doesnt mean that... well Im not trying to come off as more intelligent than I am! I know that there are a bunch of people- millions and millions and millions.. who are smarter than me- I dont consciously try to pretend differently! But I think, when I do happen to slip and mention one of these topics- (because I get so excited because I rarely get to talk to people about them) people judge me. And it hurts and makes me feel like my interests are bad. It makes me feel like theres somethinng wrong wit ME.

Anyways. You are all right. I need to remember its more about them than me. And I usually can! Its just when people hit sore spots... when Im already struggling. Thatits really bad.

Ive spent the last couple of weeks thinking I was too much of a waste of space to keep living. I guess Im just sensitive to any sort of suggestion that thag could be true