If I could just stop the stupid overexercise...not even a fractured toe is stopping me. I guess after having surgery for a perforated ulcer (truly, I didn't know a person could even feel that much pain & still be alive), my pain sometimes seems relative, especially when it comes to my overexercising. Running with blisters on my toes, bleeding toes, bleeding under the toenails, toenails falling off, all that seems relatively minor in comparison to this fractured toe. I broke it in a different location too, one I don't put as much weight/stress on while walking or running. My weight itself is stable, but I've gotten very lean from running so much. I wish I could just take a break.
I need to get rid of the scale. My first (and longest/best) recovery period, I took my scale and ran over it again and again with the car (thankfully, I lived in the country and not a housing subdivision as I do now). I don't know what the neighbors would think. They'd probably be calling the cops, thinking something crazy was going on here or that I just couldn't even park straight in front of my own garage.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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