So recently I've been thinking a lot about this summer, and it makes my anxiety so much worse. I'm going to camp, and one of my best friends who is a counselor there knows about my problems, the ED and the SI. I have scars that I will not be able to cover up because it will be the summer. I know that she will be looking for them, and she will be disapointed. At a reunion this winter she watched me like a hawk at meals. I am also training to be a counselor there. What kind of role model am I for kids? My friend said that you have to help yourself before you can help others. I am really looking foreward to being a counselor, but I don't think I will be a good one. Seriously, would you want your kids to be under the supervision of someone that can't even take care of themselves? I am so worried I don't know what to do.