Thanks everyone. I still can't type. with my glasses I can see far art and with them I can see short distances but there is a distance in between that I cannot see well.Including my laptop.

I am still very paranoid even though I am beginning to see its not real. The feeling though is terrifying. I hide in my room afraid to even get dinner sometimes. I do eat enough though. Nurses help me do this.

The second opinion when well but the cholprmazine(thorazine) he gave me made me sleep 13 hours. I am back on slow doses of seroquel today. I don't want to be super sedated during the day as I can hardly speak. He also confirmed my diagnosis of BPAD 1 with psychotic features. Apparently I am depressed but I don't feel depressed, well apart from the severe SI and low mood. Now I think it I am as I struggle to shower, sleep in the same cloths, get no enjoyment out of usual activities etc. I just down feel down enough for psychosis. Apparently I am psychotic. I can't believe it right now but maybe later.

Still fell I am in danger and being hunted down but to a slightly lower degree.