Everyone has problems. You're training to be a counselor. Your friend has not won the counselor general award of the year yet has she? Your scars and ED are symptoms of problems you are working on. You're working hard and I'd be proud and glad to have you be my kid's counselor! You know how hard it is for some kids and what to look out for. Your friend watching you "like a hawk" is not helping/healthy for you or learning much useful for herself. Your friend is not as good a counselor as I predict you will become. She lacks sensitivity and compassion, is worried about symptoms instead of you and helping you with your fears and problems.