I'm so sorry you've been hurting so much, taymickeva3 I'm glad you've started taking meds. Hopefully that will help a bit. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. You're taking care of yourself and that's good. Just do your best like you're already doing. That's all you can do after all. I hope you'll feel better soon. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you